here we go again

 So here we go again.

It's time to start again, I want and need to loose weight. I got on to the scale this morning to see where i was staring from and oh my 235 lbs.

I am 26 years old and a mother of 3. Once upon a time before i had kids i was 95 lbs and happy i had my first baby when i was 16, i gained 100 lbs, then went down to 145lbs. then when i was 21 i had my next baby and shot up to 200lbs. But after that i have done nothing but gained weight. I hate how i feel, I hate how i look, I'm just not happy. So today i am choosing to change my life, I want to be happy for my self, my kids and my husband.

I have always had an unhealthy obsession with my weight, I have tried every diet out there and some i have made up my self. I have tried pills, which i have come to realize there is no magic pill. But i love food all food, and i love to eat it all. but i know it's not healthy and i can not go on this way.

I like to snack on chips and pizza and pop all day, i never really eat a meal the hole day so i will cut up an apple and try to snack on that instead and see how that goes.... We will see.

I am hoping that with writing my day to day progress in a blog that maybe i will stay on track and not give up this time. I know there are lots and lots of other people out there that go through the same thing i am and i hope with there help and support i as well as they can get healthy.

So here we go again

Cheers